My husband and I graduated from University in the late 1990s, in the midst of the Asian financial crisis. Our parents were old school, they told us to grab the first job offered to us. And so we did – afterall, we had to pay our parents back for the money they had coughed up for our studies. Plus my mum would hear nothing of me bumming at home – waiting for the ideal job – after I had graduated from University! Her job as a Mother was done, she said! Go out and work!
Even though my husband and I worked very long hours, and we worked extremely hard, there was hardly any money left at the end of every month. It was a terrible time for us! We scrimped on everything but still there was little money. I badly wanted money! As a matter of fact, I only wanted money! I wished and I wished for more money. But I never thought about HOW I would make more money come our way.
Instead I blamed the world, I blamed my parents, I blamed his parents, I blamed my husband, I blamed the company, I blamed everything and everyone! I even blamed myself!
想起我先生和我刚‘出道’(大学毕业)那段日子。。。只有一个词语可以形容‘年轻人最大恶梦’! 当时经济危机,工作难找,出于无奈只能双手感谢肯给我们工作的雇主。做什么工作都行!请我吧!工钱少无所谓! 求求你!
心里想, 反正我们年轻嘛, 只要我们肯奋斗,我们一定可以升官发财,出人头地!哈!真是天真的想法!当时我们做牛做马,省吃减用,不过还是没有看到钱!钱呢?看见我的同事渐渐晋升,为什么我没份?到底我做错什么?我早来晚回,默默接受上司给我更重, 更重的工作量,难道我是透明人吗?
我责怪世界, 我责怪父母, 我责怪先生, 我责怪给我工作的公司, 甚至我也恨恨责怪自己命苦倒霉没出息!