The thing about being miserable is that you can see what is happening, but you cannot find the energy to fix it. I was putting on alot of weight, and my hair was falling in handfuls. I even had pimples! Big fat pimples that had alot of pus inside, those kind!!! 😱 My colleague who sat next to me remarked “The guys whistled when you first joined this company, you know? What has happened to you?”
Anyone with a clear mind will know that change was needed. But being miserable clouds the mind and drains all your energy. You are sucked into a whirl of misery, and struggle as you might, you can’t break free! Everything just goes down, down, down!
On top of all my work problems and my body issues, I also had to deal with a marriage that had disintegrated beyond repair (at that time it seemed like this). My husband and I were no longer on talking terms, because I BLAME HIM.
当时我满脑子只有一个念头:“只要有钱我就会没事,我就能减肥,应为压力大而脱落的头发就会自然生长回,难看的暗疮也会消失!只要我有钱,我就没烦恼,我先生和我破碎的婚姻就会复合。只要我有钱!!!钱是万能的,只要有钱,我就可以修补我人生所的‘洞’!!!”
不过我从没想过这让我痴迷的钱要从哪里来?我要怎么做才可以让更多钱进入我们口袋? 我只是痴迷的‘要钱’ (我是否以为钱会从天而降?!!!), 满头脑只‘要钱’, 其他的, 我都没去想, 所以我人生就这样卡住! 被卡住的那几年, 我的人生只能往下, 往下, 往下! ⬇⬇⬇😱
这就是我当年最大的错。你们可千万别浪费时间空渴望钱的来临。希望是需要你的实际付出的!你越早发觉这个道理,你就可以快快搭上火车了! 🚝 嗯!